So, today I went off-target. I overate like crazy and I really don't feel like giving a shit today. I don't know why. One day of overeating won't kill because tomorrow will be fasting day. I don't feel like purging because I don't want chicken up my oesophagus. Ah crap. Today was a bad day, period.

Ate too much today. I started the day well with my usual breakfast of bread, and then only eating an orange and apple and a piece of bread with jam for the rest of the day. Then I got dragged down for dinner with a friend, followed by a random late night snack just 10 minutes ago. I feel so torn between severely restricting my diet and eating like I usually do. I don't want to come to a situation whereby I feel enslaved by caloriecounting for the rest of my life because a return to a normal diet would mean excessive weight gain.

I wish there were such things as instant results for weight loss. I hate hate hate how my arms look now.